2011年1月28日星期五

步上生活的轨道

或许你会问我,最近的生活还习惯吗?是否感到疲倦还是劳累?我的回答是:“对,但生活亦是如此。”虽然我只有十七岁,但我已渐渐步入了外面的世界。你可以说我是传说中的井底之蛙,也可以说我笨,但就是不能说我太天真。我的想法很窘,很异想天开,但含有几分纯意。现在的心情可说是愉悦,因为担心了两个星期的Pengajian Malaysia考试就这样过了,让人有点反应不过来。我有信心可以及格,但成绩不怎么好就是了。由于天生记忆力不怎么好,所以要比别人多了几分的努力。(话说其实也没很努力T.T)在这里,我开始了我第七分工,虽然人心险恶,但你逼不得已得向别人鞠躬低头。人,构造其为极复杂,怎么思想、内心更加的复杂呢?我不禁惊叹到这大自然及世上的一切万物。几十到几百、几千甚至几亿万的细胞竟会如此地强韧。生命力,无限。写着写着,都有点不懂自己真正要表达的是什么。生活太过仓促、忙碌。有时头脑的思维会打结,不是活结而是死结。最近遇到了金钱上的瓶颈,但我坚持不向家里要钱,因为我知道钱难进容易出。这样我还可以懂得什么叫珍惜,这样才不会浪费。虽然很穷,但摇滚的精神依然还在,你可以叫我“弱克阿嫲”。屈指可数,我已离开家里有三个星期(不是离家出走==)到外面跟那两个瓜生活。其实他们也还蛮可怜的,被我知道很多很丑态的事。哈哈哈(奸笑==)。例如睡觉超奇怪的姿势,我讶异的是动作怎么有点像瑜伽?没参加奥运超高难度瑜伽比赛真的是有点浪费人才。由此可见,我是个不良的“弱克阿嫲”。PS:小朋友不可以学。
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2011年1月21日星期五

I Am Just An Ant

Good evening to my readers.The photo is taken by Miss Nut,that's me(paiseh,hao lian la).I was download it from my uncle profile because now i use lab computer so cannot upload the original photo.This photo have not been revised,is it look clear? I feel that i would only ant and wander outside.I know that many people like me,stray here stray there.I would like to say THANK YOU for those who always support and give encourage to me.When i was depressed and bad mood,they will always lend a helping hand and spirit to me.I am very inspire because they let my know that i still got family,still got friends that always concern about me.I know there is no free lunch,so i always try to do the best.Bless me all,the next week Friday i will take part in"Pengajian Malaysia"exam.I need time to do revision,but...Timeless ==" I want work hard like an ant even though it is small and inconspicuous,but it always do the best and never give up! I want too..Because i just an ant.
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2011年1月18日星期二

The school days of life

Same as usual,today i am loitering again with Connie n Agnes after class.We will come to lab everyday after we have done our homework.This is Connie and me.She is quite shy and little cute buddy.Forget to mention,Connie and I had dyed our hair.The color not same as the color we bought.We dyed it ourselves!OMG...our hair really uneven.We laughed each others for a long period.By the way,the person really need pity is Agnes.She accompany us until 3am!Sure u will feel weird right?Because we dyed our hair until 3am!!Do u feel us crazy?
See~I never normal even though take a photo.
This is our classroom.Everybody was back home liao.
Well,these photos I take on the sly.They don't know yet!I wanna see whether i got kena scold or not.hehe =) The 1st lady is Agnes.Yeah,as we all know she is same name with me,.Even though our name are same,but we have some disparity.She is quite tall,more than 170 cm if not wrong.All girls of this class are shorter than her.The others lady is the legend girl,Connie.She is a nice and hardworking person.Her every move make me feel she is so cute~She always wake up early in the morning and prepare our breakfast.Her movement always make me shock because what ever she did was so fast,quickly and clean!(er,don't misunderstand,no murder case.haha)
This is the view that we look outside through class window.If u look the photo clearly,u will found uncompleted building.That building is "Cities One"(either City or Cities),the biggest shopping mall in Kuching.It is just opposite of our college.I am very expect and hope the mall can completely done by quickly.If u see clearly again,u will dig out there are many cars block at there,serious obstruction and traffic jam!
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JYJ,Bless u

Are u nervous?Are u JYJ's fans?I convinced that all JYJ's fans will panic and tension because today is the last trial between JYJ and SM.Who will win at the last?No matter what,i will always support them.I had viewed Fb just now,there was so many people were pray for them.I really hope they can win finally lor.I really admire this photo,it is very good-looking.So,share with u.
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2011年1月17日星期一

Almost crumble

Deee~readers.Here I am.I felt very stress n panic recently.I am lacking of money now.NOT buy clothes NOT buy handphone BUT gonna pay my school fees.I want find somewhere to rent nearest my school but fail.I think i really will crumble soon if not yet find a stabilize place.Apart from this,Chinese New Year is around the corner.I want straighten my hair but NOT enough money.Money,money,money.U really make a lot of trouble for me.How can i get u?This make me recall back last Friday i was went to One Jaya with my roommate(Connie n Agnes.C).We had found many shops but all the proprietors said they want engage full time only.I think we went to 9 or 10 shops like that and finally found three shops want part time.The proprietors said they will call us if they want engage us.That's mean we haven't successful candidates.Now..I am loitering at lab again with that two buddy..Arggghh..the lacking of money T.T This intricacy feeling,u know?
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2011年1月12日星期三

Grass

Hello,my readers.Here i m coming again.Now loitering at lab.Know why this post i will put "grass"as topic?It is b'cuz my hair look like grass this whole day.Here.Today is the 1st day i studying at here.I don't know whether this choose is correct or not.My future full of mess and hardness.I gonna go out with my another 2 friends to find work so that the fees can pay.Aghhh,the feeling toilful of no money who can know? No matter what, i still need learn hard so that my future life can work up easily.Here i meet a friend who come from Miri.She is Ying Ying.I m not really close with her but also felt happy because got a person accompany unless she hate me la.Yesterday i was slept around 2am. I was chit-chat with my roomate.We are talkactive.Haha.I feel excited these days,it is b'cuz Alice sister will gonna go to Brunei liao~i really hope she work done n success la.I really touch b'cuz she reply my last post by using mandarin!! I know she don't know how to write mandarin but she did it!! i really inspire k? Besides,today when we r studying,i was so cold! I think i almost gonna faint even though i was wearing Jacket that time.I was thundershock when teacher told us the exam will be held on 28 Jan! OMG...Lastly,i wanna say is Yc chang,u must try ur best at the time that coming soon! If i am not mistaken,the examination day is next week right? Don't give urself overwhelming force, take rest n drink more~
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2011年1月6日星期四

再会,汶莱。

2010年12月22日,我以沉重的脚步告别了古晋,来到了盛产油的地方---美里。离上次来这里的时间不短不长,刚好四年。犹记得上次是带秀蓉和瑞珊一起来玩,现在回想起来就觉得时间过的真的很快,当然也在我的回忆里添了不少的童年思绪。我跟着我的外婆一起乘坐着巴士,一路上浩浩荡荡来到了美里。很多人不禁地问我,为什么不要搭飞机呢?那是因为
  1. 我外婆的主意
  2. 飞机票三百多令吉
  3. 能省则省
  4. 还可以看走马看花
话说回来走马看花倒是没有,因为我们搭晚班的车,一上车就睡着了,直到隔天早上就抵达了。回到这里,有种熟悉但又陌生的感觉。熟悉是因为这是这里是我成长的地方,陌生是因为五年没来,环境变化了许多。外婆家门前的那个芒果树早已不在,物资也显得矮小了不少。四年,这里的一切改变了不少。外婆的白发已布满了整头,黑发渐渐地疏少,残酷的时间和年龄啊。脸上的皱纹遮掩不了岁月的痕迹,黝黑的皮肤证实了我外婆年轻时是那么的打拼过生活。
隔天,我跟外婆随着舅公的车子大约四小时的车程上汶莱去了。汶莱,五年不见,依然那么繁华都丽,那么的尊贵。但...物价依然那么吓人!尤其是食物,价钱让人咋舌。每次花钱时我的心一直在淌血,无声的痛啊!23号的晚上,终于看到了几十年不见的舅舅。虽然他的样貌在我的印象里是模糊的,但看到了本尊之后觉得跟我想象的差不多。身高一米七左右,体重不详,是个很慈祥的人。我只能说我是个不怕生的人,再加上舅舅很健谈,所以气氛才不会尴尬。其实我还蛮崇拜他的,因为他会很多种语言而且感觉很厉害又有很多朋友。我并不是没有根据的说,因为每次无论在哪里,都会有他认识的人。即使是在餐厅,无论是年老的还是年轻的,总会有个是他知道的。我深信着总有一天他会认识整个汶莱的人。还有!他可以一心四用,一边驾车,一边跟姑姑讲话,一边信息,一边听歌。或许你会怀疑,这位中年男子为什么还没结婚?是的,这是个大家也搞不懂又很头痛的问题。很多妈妈级的Auntie都会介绍她们自己的女儿给他,搞到他觉得自己好像娶不到老婆那样,哭笑不得。但我很希望他能跟我未来的舅母相处的很好,我外婆也是这么一直认为。所以,快结婚吧!我很喜欢那个姐姐,希望你们真的能踏上红地毯...

在汶莱我过着一天四五餐的生活,原本已经很肥了,现在更是雪上加霜。看来我离目标越来越远,心里忍不住纳闷了起来。我来汶莱共有15天,在这么多天里我竟然没有流半滴汗,因为到哪里都是有冷气设备搞到我很不习惯。我有偶遇到我两个朋友,一个是Joaan而另一个是佼伽。气氛很尴尬,因为我真的不懂要说什么。是太久没遇到?还是真的无言?我发现那里的人都很有钱诶,买东西都不眨眼,个个驾的都是好车。要找到个穷人?难。即使有,那也是我。汶莱,有着我好多好多的童年回忆。还记得曾经有一次,我妈和爸都出去做工了,家里只剩我和我二妹。由于小是好奇心强,就把热水器打开,谁知那蓬头被我们弄坏了。老妈子回来后发飙,骂我们个臭头,我至今还记得。小时喜欢和邻家的大哥哥姐姐们一起放风筝,那是我那时唯一的乐趣,现在的他们又过得如何?没有人知道。因为后来我们失联了,现在也想不起他们的样貌。唯有模糊的碎回忆还残留在脑海中。
最丢脸又气自己的事
每次回想起这个,忍不住想捏自己一下。那天在汶莱小舅公家的时候,外婆问我抽屉的英文怎样讲,我竟然想不到!后来舅婆说:“drawer ”。当时我真得很羞耻,竟然连drawer都不记得,恨不得去撞墙。随后的某一天,舅婆又说:“commerse”(不确定是commerse 还是 commerce),我也不知道那是什么,只知道那是一种科目,真的很丢脸。长这么大什么都不知道,看来要好好恶补我的英文了。
她不喜欢拍照,因为晒到很黑,说是很像土著。
2011年1月6日
我离开了那繁华的汶莱
再会
还有谢谢你
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